A few days ago, after a sweat-filled cardio session, I rushed home to jump in the shower before having dinner. There is a mirror in my bathroom and there was a moment that I stopped and stared at myself and thought "what the heck happened????" What I saw before me was a shadow of my competition body and I immediately felt discouragement fall on me. While the last 6-7 weeks had been a struggle as far as eating is concerned, THIS week I ate well for 7 days STRAIGHT and I subconsciously expected there to be some kind of miraculous, HUGE change LOL! Of course I know that change doesn't happen that fast but it's funny how sometimes we REALLY think that our bodies are going to bounce back overnight!! After I got over my little pity party (about 5 min later), I realized that if I am truly going to be successful with my "living healthy" perspective, I could not allow myself to be all caught up in what I see in the mirror day to day.
The phrase "it's not what you see, it's what you do" immediately popped into my head and I realized that my daily focus had to be on my ACTIONS, not physical changes in my body. I could put all of my energy into staring at myself into the mirror and telling myself that I don't like what I see and it wouldn't do a darn thing!! But, putting my energy into prepping my food, kicking butt on my workouts and giving my all during cardio will do something over time...key words there are "over time." Change happens when you make daily decisions to stick to your plan and that's where our focus needs to be. That day, I made a commitment to myself to stop focusing on what I see and focus on what actions that will bring change over time.
Honestly, the past 2 days with my action focus have been really amazing. I haven't felt disappointed with myself or my body because I know that I am doing everything that I can do to establish good habits and I know that change will come.
The journey really never stops LOL it just changes… and once you "arrive", it's not long before the next challenge presents itself :) Enjoy your journey. I'm enjoying mine.
In Health,
Jada
Wednesday, October 19, 2011
Thursday, October 13, 2011
Day 3...
Thursday's are usually my long days. I teach 5 classes back to back with one 15 minute break in the morning and 35 minutes for lunch. I used wake up on Thursday's and have that "oooohhh boy it's Thursday again" negative attitude. This September, when I started back at school, I decided to look at Thursdays differently. I decided that I would no longer dread long Thursdays, but I would find a reason to be excited about them LOL Honestly, it took a few weeks of me TELLING myself that I was going to LOVE Thursday's in order for the feeling to start kicking in!! It's been just over a month now and every Thursday has been smooth :) I'm so glad that I started thinking positively about Thursdays when this year started because that positivity really helped today! It was almost like it was automatic LOL While the heat and lack of shade would have made me cranky and kept me from going outside last year, TODAY was the complete opposite. I had a big smile on my face, sweating it out, playing kickball, out of breath and loving every moment right along side my students! The only difference was my change of perspective...
I laughed to myself as I drove home today, thinking about how today's experience mirrored what is going on in my fitness journey. It's crazy how one change in perspective can take you from disgruntled and unfocused to positive and committed.
I am loving the journey that I am on!!! I know that it will bring out the best in me...
Food Log 10/13/11 (so far...)
6am- ezekiel tortilla, 3 grape tomatoes, 1/3 oz. goat cheese, chopped onion, 4 egg whites
915am- 1 asian pear, 1 scoop protein w/water
10am- 1 srv. ptia chips
12pm- 3.5 oz chicken breast, 1/2 cup butternut squash, 1 cup fennel
315pm- 3 oz chicken breast, 1/2 cup soybeans/corn/red bell pepper
515pm- 1 scoop protein, 1 pack instant coffee, 5 ice cubes, water (blended to make my coffee shake!!!!)
In Health,
Jada
I laughed to myself as I drove home today, thinking about how today's experience mirrored what is going on in my fitness journey. It's crazy how one change in perspective can take you from disgruntled and unfocused to positive and committed.
I am loving the journey that I am on!!! I know that it will bring out the best in me...
Food Log 10/13/11 (so far...)
6am- ezekiel tortilla, 3 grape tomatoes, 1/3 oz. goat cheese, chopped onion, 4 egg whites
915am- 1 asian pear, 1 scoop protein w/water
10am- 1 srv. ptia chips
12pm- 3.5 oz chicken breast, 1/2 cup butternut squash, 1 cup fennel
315pm- 3 oz chicken breast, 1/2 cup soybeans/corn/red bell pepper
515pm- 1 scoop protein, 1 pack instant coffee, 5 ice cubes, water (blended to make my coffee shake!!!!)
In Health,
Jada
Tuesday, October 11, 2011
New Day, New Focus :)
I'm starting over.
Fresh start. New plan. True Focus.
I'm going to be honest with myself and everyone else. For the past 2 years now, I have been either dieting for a show or "relaxing" and eating almost whatever I wanted. While I truly thought that I was learning to live a balanced lifestyle, what I was actually training myself to do was live in a cycle. This is how it would go...diet for a show (lasts 8-12 weeks), eat like crazy for 1-2 weeks, then play this limbo game for 4-5 weeks which consisted of 1-2 days eating clean and then 1-2 days of giving into ice cream or a cookie or whatever.My workouts would stay consistent during this cycle but my eating was off. As soon as I decided on the next show, the cycle would start over again. I never really noticed the effects of this crazy cycle because I started training for the next show relatively quickly. Well, this time around, I am forced to be honest and deal with the cycle. My last show was July 30th. I currently do not have a "next show" planned, at least not for this season. It's officially 2 months since my last show and I have been in that limbo part of the cycle for way too long!! I am honestly not comfortable with my body right now. I don't fit all my clothes and I don't feel comfortable in my own skin. Now DO NOT take this the wrong way. I am not complaining or saying that I am "fat" or trying to give myself or anyone else a body complex. I am just stating the truth. I AM HOLDING TOO MUCH WEIGHT FOR MY BODY AND SOMETHING HAS TO CHANGE.
Today is the beginning of a new perspective. I know that living fit is more of a mind over matter thing than anything else, so I had to come back to the WHY behind my commitment to health and fitness. My WHY had turned into "I do this because I am prepping for a show" and that is not going to give me the fuel to keep this going for life. I sat and thought about my WHY and what it needed to be in order for me to continue to honor my commitment to health and fitness for life. I came up with these reasons WHY I will live fit...
1) Because I feel my best when I am eating clean and working out consistently (I fit my clothes, I have more energy, I feel more confident, my skin is clear, I am happy with myself).
2) Because we are thinking of starting a family sooner than later and I have to be at my best to be the best mom!!!
3) Because I always want my husband to think that I am the hottest woman on the planet, seriously...
Your WHY's might be different from mine and that's totally fine. The point is to be able to understand and articulate what will drive you to keep your commitments even when you don't feel like it :)
Back to my new perspective...Today I started living fit for me :) Not for a show, not for a sponsor, not because somebody told me too. I can't tell you how refreshing it feels to really be doing this for me LOL It made the whole day so much easier.
As a part of me being honest with myself, I have decided to post my food logs so I can be accountable to you (my amazing supporters, friends and family). My goal is to be completely transparent so that you can see my journey, because that's what it really is...a JOURNEY. There is no overnight magic pill or 2-week get slim quick scheme. It is a daily commitment and each day you get a little closer to your goal. The days turn into weeks and then months and then years and that makes up your journey. There will be good days, bad days and everything in between. The cool thing about being on the journey is that you will get to your goal!!!! You will achieve everything you want to achieve IF you stay committed. It's not about being perfect but getting back up after a moment that knocks you down!
Here is today's log
9am- 1 asian pear
10am- 4 egg whites, 1 ezekiel tortilla, 3 grape tomatoes, 1/3 oz goat cheese, chopped red onion and hot sauce
1215pm- 1 scoop whey protein w/ 2 tsp peanut butter
245pm- 4oz. broiled salmon, 1 cup brussel sprouts/fennel, 1/2 cup butternut squash
6pm- 1 scoop whey protein shake
8pm- 4 oz. chicken breast, 1/3 cup soybeans/corn/red pepper mix, 1 cup fennel
9pm- 1 salt free rice cake, 1 tsp peanut butter, 1/2 tsp honey
That's all for today :)
In Health,
Jada
Fresh start. New plan. True Focus.
I'm going to be honest with myself and everyone else. For the past 2 years now, I have been either dieting for a show or "relaxing" and eating almost whatever I wanted. While I truly thought that I was learning to live a balanced lifestyle, what I was actually training myself to do was live in a cycle. This is how it would go...diet for a show (lasts 8-12 weeks), eat like crazy for 1-2 weeks, then play this limbo game for 4-5 weeks which consisted of 1-2 days eating clean and then 1-2 days of giving into ice cream or a cookie or whatever.My workouts would stay consistent during this cycle but my eating was off. As soon as I decided on the next show, the cycle would start over again. I never really noticed the effects of this crazy cycle because I started training for the next show relatively quickly. Well, this time around, I am forced to be honest and deal with the cycle. My last show was July 30th. I currently do not have a "next show" planned, at least not for this season. It's officially 2 months since my last show and I have been in that limbo part of the cycle for way too long!! I am honestly not comfortable with my body right now. I don't fit all my clothes and I don't feel comfortable in my own skin. Now DO NOT take this the wrong way. I am not complaining or saying that I am "fat" or trying to give myself or anyone else a body complex. I am just stating the truth. I AM HOLDING TOO MUCH WEIGHT FOR MY BODY AND SOMETHING HAS TO CHANGE.
Today is the beginning of a new perspective. I know that living fit is more of a mind over matter thing than anything else, so I had to come back to the WHY behind my commitment to health and fitness. My WHY had turned into "I do this because I am prepping for a show" and that is not going to give me the fuel to keep this going for life. I sat and thought about my WHY and what it needed to be in order for me to continue to honor my commitment to health and fitness for life. I came up with these reasons WHY I will live fit...
1) Because I feel my best when I am eating clean and working out consistently (I fit my clothes, I have more energy, I feel more confident, my skin is clear, I am happy with myself).
2) Because we are thinking of starting a family sooner than later and I have to be at my best to be the best mom!!!
3) Because I always want my husband to think that I am the hottest woman on the planet, seriously...
Your WHY's might be different from mine and that's totally fine. The point is to be able to understand and articulate what will drive you to keep your commitments even when you don't feel like it :)
Back to my new perspective...Today I started living fit for me :) Not for a show, not for a sponsor, not because somebody told me too. I can't tell you how refreshing it feels to really be doing this for me LOL It made the whole day so much easier.
As a part of me being honest with myself, I have decided to post my food logs so I can be accountable to you (my amazing supporters, friends and family). My goal is to be completely transparent so that you can see my journey, because that's what it really is...a JOURNEY. There is no overnight magic pill or 2-week get slim quick scheme. It is a daily commitment and each day you get a little closer to your goal. The days turn into weeks and then months and then years and that makes up your journey. There will be good days, bad days and everything in between. The cool thing about being on the journey is that you will get to your goal!!!! You will achieve everything you want to achieve IF you stay committed. It's not about being perfect but getting back up after a moment that knocks you down!
Here is today's log
9am- 1 asian pear
10am- 4 egg whites, 1 ezekiel tortilla, 3 grape tomatoes, 1/3 oz goat cheese, chopped red onion and hot sauce
1215pm- 1 scoop whey protein w/ 2 tsp peanut butter
245pm- 4oz. broiled salmon, 1 cup brussel sprouts/fennel, 1/2 cup butternut squash
6pm- 1 scoop whey protein shake
8pm- 4 oz. chicken breast, 1/3 cup soybeans/corn/red pepper mix, 1 cup fennel
9pm- 1 salt free rice cake, 1 tsp peanut butter, 1/2 tsp honey
That's all for today :)
In Health,
Jada
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