Keepin' it REAL

It's been almost a year since my last blog post and about the same amount of time since I captured any of my thoughts and opinions in writing. So much has changed in one year...

My last post left you with a smile and a strong belief that everything would be okay. I had recently miscarried but had worked through the grieving process. I was excited about the upcoming year and I believed that God would give me and my husband another child.

Fast forward to NOW...

This morning, I strapped my 6 week old son, Jayce, tightly into his stroller, put on my workout gear and went for a run. The sun barely made it through the thick clouds that covered the sky. You wouldn't have been able to tell it was a cloudy day by looking at me. I smiled at everyone that passed us by! God's goodness was on my mind. I still cannot believe that on Mother's day last year, in the early hours of the morning, I was in the ER, going through the painful process of losing my baby. This year, on Mother's day, I was holding my precious new baby and Josiah, our oldest son. As I ran, snap shots of significant moments flashed in my mind. Moments of pain, moments of faith, moments of laughter, praise, and gratitude. While the past year held some of the most challenging moments of my life, God also gave me some of the most beautiful gifts ever. I am so thankful.

I'm not sure what changed in me today that pushed me to begin to write again, but I'm glad that I was inspired to share.

If you are in one of those painful moments, remember that you will get through. All the pain can never outweigh the love that surrounds you in God's presence. When the moment seems hopeless, He is there and can see past the pain even when you can't. Brighter days are always ahead.